From: "Bruce B." Toronto
Sent: Friday, May 25, 2007 5:53 PM
Subject: My Palestinian Diary

Dear Samah,

After watching the spirited discussion on "The Agenda" last night, I spent today reading all the entries in your diary (now that I am retired and have the time.)

It certainly was very interesting and enlightening as I had little knowledge of what is really happening over there.

It is heartbreaking how so many Palestinians have to live, and for so long, and under such circumstances.  I sincerely hope some sort of solution, as discussed last night, comes to fruition and soon.

I really appreciate your writing and photos.

Dear Bruce,

I'm glad you enjoyed reading my diary.  It is hard to believe that sixty years have passed and the Palestinian Refugees are still waiting in those horrid camps for a solution.  Thank you for your feedback and please always stay vocal on these issues.  We need all the help we can get!

Samah

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Subject: Diary: "Whitening the Arab World"
From: Carmen London
Date:  November 2, 2005

Hello Samah!

I have just finished reading My Palestinian Diary, Reports from Amman. You are an absolutely incredible writer!! For the past 6 months I have been speaking to a man (Palestinian) from Jordan. We met via the Internet but I haven't been to Jordan. We often speak of his heritage and culture. I have immersed myself in learning everything I can. I try to impress him by telling him of things I've learned. Most of it is thanks to your Diary. We are worlds apart in every way (Im Puerto Rican/Black/Japanese). Because of what I am I can relate first hand to the oppression that your nation has and continues to live in. I really loved your article on the skin lightening. That runs rampant through the states. I actually had to print that article to show to Hassan (my friend in Jordan). He always makes it a point to let everyone know that he is "white". He wants to move here to the states. I explained to him that in Arab countries he may be considered "white skinned." Here in America the only people considered "white" are Germans, Irish, British, Italian...etc. I didn't understand why he got sooo upset that I (heaven forbid) told him that he was olive not white.

After reading your article I now understand. I would like to ask if you know if there are any organizations set up for donations for the families living in the camps? If there are and you have the information I would love to make a contribution.

Your articles became a part of my nightly ritual. I would read one article per night before bed. I am now finished and I'm thirsty to read more of your work. Do you have other works?

Thank you for writing a piece that shows the truth to those of us who would probably not get to see it firsthand, and have only a watered down media version.

You're brilliant!

Dear Carmen,

Thank you so much for your comments.  My daughter and I laughed alot at your friend's denial of being "Olive" not white.  That reminded us of many people we know who would go to great length to prove they are white.  I'll never forget a friend who in her effort to prove to me how white she really was pulled up her tshirt to show me the color of her belly, claiming the rest of her was just tanned by the sun.

About my writing, I am sorry to say that the diary has come to an end.  I have other published work and you'll find most of it at this link http://ramallahonline.com but there is nothing too recent. However, I have just bought tickets for myself and my daughter and we'll be traveling in December back to Jordan, this time, we'll be crossing the bridge into the Occupied Territories and making it though all the checkpoints to Gaza.  I am sure I'll be inspired once more, the words will be back and perhaps a few more articles will be written.  I'll keep you posted.

About donations, I can suggest one for now and you can find out more about it at this link http://zaytoun.org/

Take care and thanks again.

Samah

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Subject: Diary: "Whitening the Arab World"
From: Noureddine E., U. de Alicante to Samah Sabawi
Date:  July 28, 2004

I have just read your article online entitled "Whitening the Arab World: Reinforcing the Arab inferiority complex". These days, I am writing a paper for the Masters program I am doing at the university of Alicante, Spain. This paper is about the presentation of women in ads in the arab world and the west: a comparative study. your article is actually of a great interest in my project. By the way, I am originally from Morocco.  Have a nice day!

Hi Noureddine,
 
Thank you for the email. I am glad my article is of some use to you. I would be interested in knowing the findings of your study so if possible keep me posted.

Regards,
Samah

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Subject: Diary: "Whitening the Arab World"
From: Carol B., Ph.D. to Samah Sabawi
Date:  July 28, 2004

as-salaam 'azizati Samah:

How true and how sad that peoples "of color" still are seduced by the notion of "white skin privilege"! How long will it take for us to realize that together we constitute the majority in the world and can change things, for all, for the better. I wonder how "shadism" fits into the traditional Islamic understanding about the absence of race-consciousness in Islam?

Thank you for addressing the frightening spread of skin lightening and putting it in its correct socio-political context within the Arabic-speaking world.

Dear Carol:
 
Thank you for your email.  If only people understood and followed what their religions dictated.  I am afraid "shadism" is only one of the symptoms of a diseased fragmented and impoverished Arab society.  A society badly in need of reform, education, liberation and instead is falling deeper under colonial rule, white supremacy and western oppression.

Salam,
Samah

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Subject: Diary: A Christmas Story - The Mall Pictures in Jordan

From: D. Fraser, Florida, USA to Samah Sabawi

Date:  December 24, 2004

Hello Samah,

It was refreshing and quite an eye opening story about how your family celebrated many forms of the holidays. I only wish more Americans could see the way it really is and not the propaganda news stories that only show that area of the world as fanatical. As an American and a Christian, I am quite ashamed of how ignorant my fellow countrymen are when it come to the rest of the world (God save us from Bush). I beg you and your country men and women to keep shouting from the mountain tops that not all Islamic people are evil and there is room in the tent for others as well as yourselves. You have to keep putting these kinda stories out in mass so eventually it will sink in that everyone over there isn't some sort of a terrorist and prove once and for all, that our media is lying to us. Plain and simple in this world of digital photography keep sending pictures showing the tolerance for your fellow man. Someone has  to break down the wall of ignorance before we end up destroying what's left of this small rock in space that we share. Feel free to send me similar stories and pictures and I will disperse them to those who need some reality put in the face of their ignorance.

God Bless you...

Thank you for your lovely letter.  I have been shouting from the mountain tops but I've gotta tell you sometimes, especially after reading the morning paper, a sense of despair starts to sink in, and I hear a little voice in the back of my head saying "you know, this is hopeless."  Then I remind myself that with the state that the world is in these days, not on of us on this planet has the luxury to give up.

Emails like yours give me energy to keep on going. New pictures will be up before new year - that is a promise!

Thanks again.

Samah

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Subject: Diary: A Christmas Story

From: James R.

Date:  December 23, 2004

...the  best one yet.  minute and large, simple and complicated.  I know you have issues with the Ottawa Citizen, but I sent them you're story. (pls don't hate me).  The personalization of tolerance in your story is a message which should ring through-out the land.

Warmly...

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Subject: Diary: Oh, Canada

From: Amjad F. to Samah Sabawi

Date:  December 18, 2004

Hi Samah,
 
I read your article "Part X - Oh, Canada..." on www.yayacanada.com. I would  like to say that it is interesting. I noticed that you tried to balance some of the pros and cons in both Canada and Jordan.
 
Please allow me to follow-up on your article with some personal comments of mine. I notice that many Arabs in North America always complain about how the declared freedoms and rights in the west are not fully enforced in societies, especially when it comes to Arabs living in these societies.
 
I am a proud Palastinian, live in Ottawa, was raised in Amman, and was born in another forth country. I've been to several countries around the world.  And I think that we, Arabs, tend to take things the easy way. We're like opportunists. A good example is what you mentioned in your article, when some Arab families started to immigrate back to the Middle East after 9/11 because  of fear. They could've stayed in their houses, schools, and communities and struggled to have their rights implemented. As you mentioned, many families gave up - very quickly - and refused to face the new challenges.
 
I'd like to remind you of another example about a community, who when immigrated to North America nearly 50 years ago, was very unwelcomed. Publically unwelcomed and harrased. Yet, this community in spite of the tremendous difficulties once they're facing, enjoy strong powers and authorities in the country. And without going into too much details, let me tell you that they reached this state because of smart planning, dedication, and hard work.
 
Competition between communities has been always existing, so been hatred and  discrimination. These were never new news in history, dealing with them though is always news. I think this is what we should emphasize on. We shouldn't keep running away, having very short-term goals only. We need to struggle in life to have a better one, if not for us, then for our kids. We shouldn't expect this struggle to be easy. How much organization, planning, and dedication we have will determine how long it will take to have a better life.
 
Thank you for writing, and thank you for reading my comments.

Dear Amjad,

Thanks for your comment.  I agree with you.  Sadly many people give up too quickly and yes, many take the easy way out.  But, I do believe that our community has come a long way and that there is much hope in the future.

Stay hopeful and voiced.

Thanks again.
Samah

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From: J. G. Muller, Kentucky, USA  - to Yayacanada - Forwarded to Samah Sabawi for response

Sent: Friday, December 17, 2004 5:29 AM

Subject: A Christmas Story

Thank you for being on this earth and being gifted with words, a vision of your world that you're willing to share, a pen to write about it, and "heart".

YYC: Thank you for writing.  Samah's computer is being repaired and she can't respond personally, but wants you know she is touched by your kind words.

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From: Brian G. to Yayacanada - Forwarded to Samah Sabawi for response

Sent: Thursday, December 16, 2004 5:41 PM - Response received December 19, 2004

Subject: Mecca Mall - Amman, Jordan (A Christmas Story)

I came across a link to your article from the whatreallyhappened.com website.  I have never been to Jordan, or anywhere in the Middle East, but it seems like there is a lot of English in the picture, but absolutely no Arabic.  Is English taught there?  Do a lot of the citizens read and speak English?  I realize that you do not need to translate Polo Ralph Lauren, but all of the other signage is in English as well.  What's the deal with that?

Most Arabs are bilingual - they speak Arabic and English in some countries and Arabic and French in others - depending who colonized them when.  Here in Amman, you'll find most Palestinians hold very high university degrees and they are at least bilingual, some also speak French fluently and are trilingual.
 
Because everyone here understands and speaks fluent English, in the malls, such as the case in Mecca Mall, the signs are often in English, but some are also in Arabic depending on the services offered.  Street signs and services are done in both English and Arabic.

Samah

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Subject: Diary: A Christmas Story

From: Patrick J. to Samah Sabawi

Date:  December 18, 2004

(In my case, also Happy Hanukkah - Surprise!)

My father was raised rather strict Catholic and my mother is Jewish. I identify with both, and certainly have enough room for Islamic culture in my mind.

I do find it sad that the press plays such a large role in instigating and perpetuating fighting.  I just don't believe in my heart of hearts that people actually WANT to live in constant fear, with hatred always in their minds.  It sure seems to be a common path, though. People like you might someday drown out the negativity and portray the much more desirable (and, I hope, more common) positive side of human nature.

Are you getting a good response to the article?

It is a wonderful surprise indeed.  Happy Hanukkah.  Yes, I've been getting lots of positive feedback.  Stay vocal Patrick and do keep in touch.  The world needs more voices like yours.

Samah

From: Patrick J. to Samah Sabawi

Date:  December 17, 2004

A link to this story traveled to me through a friend, as I"m sure has happened to it many, many times now.  It's exactly what I'd love to see more of; on the web, in magazines and newspapers, and on television. Thanks for writing about the positive things in the Arab world for a change.

Thanks Patrick.  Sadly, we are always bombarded with negative stereotypes and sensational headlines about the Arab World, we don't see the beauty and warmth of Arab culture.  I am hopeful to hear from you and from others like you who search for the truth and who appreciate the common human thread that binds us. 

Samah

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Subject: Diary: A Christmas Story

From: J. Park to Samah Sabawi

Date:  December 17, 2004

This was sent to me by a friend. I lived and worked in Beirut for 10 years. I established a subsidiary for the American company, for which I worked. Most of the people I hired during those 10 years were Palestinians (Christians) or Lebanese (Muslims) from the area. I certainly agree with your observations; and we had a very strong "family" bond among all of us. Many of us still keep in touch via the internet after more than 36 years. The media in the USA never shows that side of  Middle Eastern culture. I still think of Lebanon as my adopted second home. Some of the best years of my life were spent there and some of my very best friends still live there.Thank you for your insights and thoughts.

YYC: Thank you for writing. This has been forwarded to Samah.

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Subject: Diary: A Christmas Story

From: Jack M. to YayaCanada

Date:  December 16, 2004

that's the way it is supposed to be, every where, all the time .  did you just figure that out ?, because the powers that run the world won't let us be friends, don't forget the good jews(there is some) but alas the zionest (fascist) bastards (of various faiths) that want to engulf the world in war , and for their profit.. well pick up a bible, turn to revelations, chapter 18, and read, the usa is babylon the great, doesn't look good for america does it ?, can not america's christians read or comprehend?. (religious right).....they say jesus will come for them just before the shit (that they help bring about)hits the fan. .... what are they reading?( i know).........that's not the jesus i found in my heart. let me qualify my self......... completed the eighth grade, poor student.-------i don't read novels, or watch televison or movies,and don't go to church, i am a us military veteran, and i was born the year before the atomic bomb........... bush will A bomb iran........... hope all goes well with you, and god bless you, that was a touching  x-mass story.. can't say christmas, it's agains the law.

YYC: Thanks for writing Jack.  Always good to hear from veterans who don't believe in today's wars and or in the kind of Jesus that some warmongering Christians claim to be following. Yes there are many, many good Jewish people who are working hard for peace in the Middle East, and that alone is reason to hope.  Your final comment must be referring to the attempt to ban any sign of Hanukkah or Christmas in the USA.  That does seem a little extreme.  Best wishes to you.

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Subject: Diary: A Christmas Story

From: Brian O'C  to Samah Sabawi

Date:  December 16, 2004

I want you to know that I do read your entries even though I have not been replying with comments. I have viewed your photos too at Yayacanada.com, and eagerly await your newest batch!

I feel very lucky to have been given this inside look at Palestinian day-to-day life, culture and daily suffering. I learn something new with each entry. In today's entry I learned the origin of the word breakfast (!) I participated in the recent Ramadan fast in solidarity with Muslim detainees. But I still did not appreciate the etymology of breakfast! Duh!

I have also learned from your stories the possibilities of peaceful co-existence IN SPITE of all attempts by governments and religious zealots to destroy it.

Keep writing. You have a great gift to touch people's hearts with your words and your photographs.

In solidarity and friendship...

Hi Brian,
 
Thank you for your feedback.  It is always nice to hear from other fellow activists.  Of course, there is always a possibility for peaceful co-existence, the problem is war is always so profitable, believe me, I've seen the mansions.  I am glad you've enjoyed my photos, I promise you the best is yet to come.  Stay active and keep your web sites running, it is voices like yours that will eventually make a difference.
 
Samah

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Subject: Diary: On Charity and Human Contact

From: Rouba

Date:  December 10, 2004

The most terrible of all is that the Palestinian camps everywhere look the same. Some hundred women were "lucky" (if it may be appropriate to use this term) to receive this visit in Talibieh camp. A few years back I took a project for a production house. We were asked to make a documentary on working mothers in Palestinian camps. We were to specifically target those women who work in the plastic tents in the North (the camp we visited is in Tripoli).
 
It is painful to read the words. But it is so much more to watch and listen. We must value the need of these women to tell their stories. We met an old lady who had a similar story as the one Samah told and she explained to us how she came from Palestine to Lebanon on foot when she was only a young girl. When she asked us to listen, she was not looking for pity. She does not need our pity. Who are we to pity others anyway? Pity is just a comfortable place where we can feel "good" about ourselves believing that we have achieved a charitable action by "feeling" sorry for these people. All she wanted was just to tell us who she truly was.
 
Articles like the one Samah wrote are great because it is good to be reminded from time to time. Not to feel guilty. Just to know, and most importantly never forget as Taghrid said. And teach our children to remember too because they must be aware and they must be involved. Because it is our duty to ACT. And even those who can't afford financial donations can do something. I know for a fact that in Beirut, you can do as little as visiting those families and giving them your friendship, or teaching children in camp schools. I am sure it is the same wherever there is a camp. Or the least would be to simply talk about it and let the world know so that these people do not become just numbers in Human Rights statistics.
 
Thank you again for the article and let me know how you think we should move forward and help. A donation is one-time action and it is a valuable one, but how can we do more?

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Subject: Diary: On Charity and Human Contact

From: Bahija

Date:  December 10, 2004

Tears are not enough to wash out the sins that have been committed against the Palestinian people. Bringing back to the forefront, as you and too few others do, the Palestinians refugees still refugees after 3 generations is a must. They are at the heart of the Palestinian issue and one must never forget it. Keep up the good work and don't harden inside.

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Subject: Diary: On Charity and Human Contact

From: Aseel

Date:  December 10, 2004

Thank you for sharing!  It was wonderful to read!  We need to hear this, and remember every once in a while.  This must have been a very rewarding experience.

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Subject: Diary: On Charity and Human Contact

From: Oussama Mohtar

Date:  December 9, 2004

Neither Samah, nor Taghrid, need our applause, they need our action.
 
I am going to ask - nay to challenge - my friends world wide, particularly,  but not exclusively, in Canada, California, Ohio, Australia and Dubai, to set committees to collect donations and support the work of Samah, and people like Taghrid. We don't want to keep their work a drop in a bucket. We need a rainfall of solidarity, love and affection to our victims of consecutive wars; to victims of humanity turning a blind eye on injustice, occupation and misery.
 
Samah, please let us know how can we forward monetary donations to you. I have set aside a small amount that I would like to add to other contributions from those who would like to do so.
 
Thank you for setting the example.
 
Salaam to you and your family and friends.

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Subject: Diary: On Charity and Human Contact

From: Leila

Date:  December 7, 2004

Hello Samah,

This truly is your best so far.  May you be blessed with the courage and strength to bring this experience, as hard as it may be, to the onlookers who seem to be turning away more and more.

I have one comment, when referring to Israel, I would prefer that you use "when Israel was established" as opposed to "when Israel was created" simply because the word create has a positive connotation to it.  One creates beautiful things but occupiers establish rules, laws and walls and states which turn proud people into beggars.

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Subject: Talibieh

From: Rosalie

Date: December 3, 2004

Thank you for telling their story. The photo of the undaunted woman with her Olive tree says a lot; despite the burden, she has not been broken. Your words of 'Palestinian tenacity' are a very appropriate description.

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Subject: Your Diary

From: Colette

Date: November 26, 2004

I just read your diary - thanks so much for letting us in on this window of your life.  It's both enchanting and heart-breaking.  I wish you and your family well, and keep sending thought waves of hope for your fellow Palestinians.

Please let people there know that there are many Canadians who despise what the Bush administration and Israel are doing and that we support you.

All the best to you...

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Subject:  Re: Stories from the Camp:  Twist of Fate

From: Dr. Hamdy Youssef, Eng.

Date: Wed, 17 Nov 2004 11:46:36 -0800 (PST)
 
I  am sorry to read about your personal and family story from Gaza to Aman in 1967.   Few months earlier in July 1967, I was a voluntier in a war front Hospital in Qantara West across the Sues Canal (only about 500 meters) from Qantara East, and I could see the Israeli Army in front of me every day. I had met Egyptian Refugee, participated in transporting wounded and killed Egyptian Civilians to the Hospital as a result of the Israeli indisciminate and criminal bombings.....

I was undergraduate Engineering  student at the time.

You wrote: 'No one likes the idea of visiting the camps or of dealing with people from the camps.'   That is exactly my point of view, it is yours and others obligations and responsiblities to write and publish  every story from the camps to pressure the people to carry out their responsibilities and obligations:

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